Monday, August 8, 2011
103 days?! Only 103 days. Where in the world does the time go? I started this journey a few months ago, but never truly committed. I thought of it as a goal that I wanted, but could never achieve. I can't even count the number of times I went back and forth on my decision to compete or how I felt about myself. One day I was telling myself "Hell ya I can do this...look out world I am going to win." The next day I was staring in the mirror thinking "Yeah right! Look at you...there is NO WAY you will be ready." The last two weeks have been a major transition period for me. I am working towards a promotion at work, just moved into a new house, and went on a weekend get away for a Bachelorette party. Don't get me wrong, all of these events are incredibly exciting, but they didn't fit in well with my training and or eating schedule...well scratch that, they did fit in...I just chose to be lazy and cheat. So now...I am exactly where I started a few months ago. Back to square one. Can I do this in 103 days? I am not sure of the answer to this question just yet, but I can promise you this...I am going to give it 100% from here on. I might have breakdowns, I might need to ask for more help, and I may even have moments where I want to just throw in the towel, but that is not going to stop me. I am giving this my all.
And this is the part where I ask for help from all you fellow fitness bloggers and reach out to my trainer.
To my fellow bloggers, I need all the support I can get. Tips and tricks? Where were you at when you started this process? Any suggestions of how to stay positive and keep on pushing!?
To Jen, I have already told you this but I want to apologize for not giving you my all. You are giving me 200% and I have barely been giving you 50% these last two weeks. The way you inspire me and push me is incredible and I truly believe you have confidence in me. I am working on the having confidence in myself part, but I know I will get there soon. I am strong, I am beautiful, I am fit, and I am a competitor.